Of all the things I believe in
I just want to get it over with
tears from behind my eyes
but I do not cry
Counting the days that past me by

I've been searching deep down in my soul
Words that I'm hearing are starting to get old
Looks like I'm starting all over again
The last three years were just pretend and I say

Goodbye to you
Goodbye to everything I thought I knew
You were the one I love
The one thing that I tried to hold on to

I still get lost in your eyes
And it seems like I can't live a day without you
Closing my eyes till you chase my thoughts away
To a place where I am blinded by the light but it's not right

Goodbye to you
Goodbye to everything I thought I knew
You were the one I loved
The one thing that I tried to hold on to

Ohhh yeah
It hurts to want everything & nothing at the same time
I want whats yours and I want whats mine
I want you but I'm not giving in this time

Goodbye to you
Goodbye to everything I thought I knew
You were the one I loved
The one thing that I tried to hold on to
The one thing that I tried to hold on to

Goodbye to you
Goodbye to everything I thought I knew
You were the one I loved
The one thing that I tried to hold on to

We the stars fall and I lie awake
Your my shooting star


Few more days to exam le. Having Maths on 3 June and Econs on 4 June. Went out to Yishun Mac to mug yesterday till this morning 7 plus. It's really madness. People come Mac for breakfast but me and my friends are actually there since yesterday, never sleep kind and mugging. Maths seems alright for me le, just have to conquer Econs. It's true madness having so many graphs to draw and theory. Anyway, me and David were trying to figure out the matrixes yesterday. I still decide to give it up cause it is simply a waste of time doing so many steps just for a few marks.lolx..it really crack my brain trying to change those rows of numbers.

Morning, David friend Wee Hiong came to find us at Mac and then we went to have breakfast at Chong Pang. Been ages since i went there. haha..back to my hometown. lol...then after that sent Wendy home first and then he sent me home. Reached home around 9am and flat on bed once again. Set my alarm 330pm and when it went off im still dreaming on the bed... it's like so fast need to wake up. But i was very tired so i just laid on the bed and finally get up at 5pm. Went to get food and just finish eating so here i am blogging. Need to go bathe and go CG soon. Real tired...


Im Officially on leave from work yesterday and mugging starts yesterday. Had class yesterday but it ended at 830pm. Crap lor. the lecturer says dunno what to revise anymore and so release us from the class. Went to eat with Wendy,David and Max at CLementi and head off to Airport T2 to study with Wendy and David. We mug until 7 plus in the morning today. Reached home ard 9 am and flat on the bed. Woke up at 6 plus, went to shower and have my 1st meal of the day. lol! was rather tired still. Started mugging for econs around 8 plus and Im going out to meet Wendy and the rest again to study but this time going to Yishun Mac, somewhere nearer to all of us. Guess be home tmr morning again le.lol. Pls continue to pray for me and that I will be able to pass my bridging course.

Anyway, congrats to Ryan for officially graduating from SP yesterday. Just too bad that i cant be there to see you graduating but i did do so on the webcast. Alright i shall update again soon


Had a rather busy and tiring day at work today. Did OT for 2 hours and just finished my dinner. Soon it will be time to go to bed again. That's how fast my time fly. Anyway, today my head asked me about my local uni application and say when i know already tell her, cause she wanna know whether im staying or leaving the company. my contract ends on July 9 but right now, thinking should i work another 1 month to earn a bit more money before i go to school. Maybe i should and can spend more time with my colleagues too. A bit cant bear to leave them now, haha...anyway, shall see what to say to my head, rather tough to tell her. lol... going to watch show again and study a bit too before sleeping.

What Tan Li Ping Sharon Means

You are a seeker. You often find yourself restless - and you have a lot of questions about life. You tend to travel often, to fairly random locations. You're most comfortable when you're far away from home. You are quite passionate and easily tempted. Your impulses sometimes get you into trouble. You are usually the best at everything ... you strive for perfection. You are confident, authoritative, and aggressive. You have the classic "Type A" personality. You are very intuitive and wise. You understand the world better than most people. You also have a very active imagination. You often get carried away with your thoughts. You are prone to a little paranoia and jealousy. You sometimes go overboard in interpreting signals. You are relaxed, chill, and very likely to go with the flow. You are light hearted and accepting. You don't get worked up easily. Well adjusted and incredibly happy, many people wonder what your secret to life is. You tend to be pretty tightly wound. It's easy to get you excited... which can be a good or bad thing. You have a lot of enthusiasm, but it fades rather quickly. You don't stick with any one thing for very long. You have the drive to accomplish a lot in a short amount of time. Your biggest problem is making sure you finish the projects you start. You are influential and persuasive. You tend to have a lot of power over people. Generally, you use your powers for good. You excel at solving other people's problems. Occasionally, you do get a little selfish and persuade people to do things that are only in your interest. You are deeply philosophical and thoughtful. You tend to analyze every aspect of your life. You are intuitive, brilliant, and quite introverted. You value your time alone. Often times, you are grumpy with other people. You don't appreciate them trying to interfere in your affairs. You are the total package - suave, sexy, smart, and strong. You have the whole world under your spell, and you can influence almost everyone you know. You don't always resist your urges to crush the weak. Just remember, they don't have as much going for them as you do. You are truly an original person. You have amazing ideas, and the power to carry them out. Success comes rather easily for you... especially in business and academia. Some people find you to be selfish and a bit overbearing. You're a strong person. You are wild, crazy, and a huge rebel. You're always up to something. You have a ton of energy, and most people can't handle you. You're very intense. You definitely are a handful, and you're likely to get in trouble. But your kind of trouble is a lot of fun. You are well rounded, with a complete perspective on life. You are solid and dependable. You are loyal, and people can count on you. At times, you can be a bit too serious. You tend to put too much pressure on yourself.

Just completed watching the 9pm show on Mobtv. Well,the story is rather sad but however the ending was a happy ending in the end. Christopher Lee sacrificed himself and so on. Shall not say so much. See for yourself, haha. Anyway, how i wish in real life, we can have second chances and even third chances to change our life around, to turn every situation around. It would be good if in real life, there is a wishing well as well where we can go and wish for things to start all over again or turn back in time. I think im thinking too much now but well, sometimes i really hope i can start over my whole life once again and see what's the outcome or rather never start this life at all. I think im somehow nuts already.

Alright, nothing much to add on. very tired already but yet like cant sleep feeling. still got to try to slp so i shall stop here then.


Hi readers! hows everyone? been few days since i last blogged. Well, this week was very busy at work cause it's COE bidding week and everyday there is lotsa application to process. Had school on Tues and Wed as usual. Maths ended already. Today had Econs lesson in the morning as well. So tired. Im really scare with Econs cause rather tough and hard to understand the question. Really need to pray for wisdom and understanding. Exam is coming up on 3 and 4 June. Pls pray for me that i will pass so that i can successfully proceed to Year 2 instead of starting with the whole year 1. Going to start revision tmr and Wed i will be officially on leave for 1 week. Need to study and mug again.

By the way, just received NUS rejection letter today. kind of expected anyway, haha. Waiting for NTU to come. Guess the outcome will be reject also. I think it is God's will that I am to study at SIM. Cause somehow for SIM, everything just went on smoothly. FOr example, able to take loan on time and also i never select bridging when i apply for the course but somehow the person called me and told me about it. If not i wun be given the chance to take bridging and i will waste 1 whole year. So i think it is really God's plan.

Going mobtv to watch the 9pm show le. lol. i cant wait to watch each day, haha. somehow really addicted to the show. But before watching, im going to practise my guitar cause tmr having lesson. haha...


Spent the whole of Vesak Day at home. Slept at 3 plus last night and woke up at 3 plus today. Came online and continued watching the drama bian zou qu. It's really nice and touching. certain scenes are really touching. Watching it really shows how life is and so on. Bascially for those who never watch this drama, it is about this gal which jeanette aw is playing that role, she is trap in her past and living in the shadow of it. Her bf actually died and so she could not let go of it and still holding on to it.

Elvin Ng who is playing the role of zhiyuan resembles her bf and so she sort of take her as him and she also get to know Christopher Lee who plays the role of Junjie when she enrols in school of architecture. It's really a relationship that is so complicated cause there is love here n there. Saw some preview online and i think the ending will be rather sad as there will be death of some love ones.

Anyway, cant wait to keep on watching the show. haha. but tmr and the rest of the week would not be able to watch cause have school at night and so on. So will catch it online soon again. Watching this show can really get emo at times.lolx. alright, im going off. after taking my medicine, i am getting drowsy.


My tears run down like razorblades
And no, I'm not the one to blame
It's you, or is it me?
And all the words we never say
Come out and now we're all ashamed
And there's no sense in playing games
When you've done all you can do

But now it's over, it's over, why is it over?
We had the chance to make it
Now it's over, it's over, it can't be over
I wish that I could take it back
But it's over

I lose myself in all these fights
I lose my sense of wrong and right
I cry, I cry
It's shaking from the pain that's in my head
I just wanna crawl into my bed
And throw away the life I led
But I won't let it die, but I won't let it die

But it's over, it's over, why is it over?
We had the chance to make it
Now it's over, it's over, it can't be over
I wish that I could take it back

I'm falling apart, I'm falling apart
Don't say this won't last forever
You're breaking my heart, you're breaking my heart
Don't tell me that we will never be together
We could be, over and over
We could be, forever

I'm falling apart, I'm falling apart
Don't say this won't last forever
You're breaking my heart, you're breaking my heart
Don't tell me that we will never be together
We could be, over and over
We could be, forever

It's not over, it's not over, it's never over
Unless you let it take you
It's not over, it's not over, it's not over
Unless you let it break you
It's not over


Went back to work on Sunday morning and ended at 1 plus. was really tired as i have not recovered from my flu. Cleared some work and tuesday would have more to go. Left my office around 1 plus and my colleague Edison sent me home. Thanks a lot. Think i have lost some weight this week. Went home, had my lunch and then i slept at 4 plus and woke up at 8 plus.

So came back online and watched my drama show. Now catching the channel 8 9pm show online. Quite a nice show showing all the relationships going on etc. Soon, my bridging course is ending and exam is approaching. Time really flies. Pray hard that i will pass my exam in June and then will move on in my studies in Aug. I am still wondering where is my NTU and NUS letter. Some says no news is good news. Probably i still have chance. Well,shall just wait for the letter to drop in my letter box soon i guess.

Tmr will be just spending another day at home resting and prepare for work and school on Tues. What i need now is really lotsa rest so that i will have the strength to work and study.


伍家辉 - 虽然我愿意

请让我靠近你轻轻对你说
别让我每个夜为你受折磨
是多么不容易才默默放手

为了我就当作这次为了我
别让我因为你被回忆折磨
而空气凝结了我们的脸孔
我别无选择

就算我们之间有什么问题
依然想念着你
虽然被放弃
虽然我愿意

就算我们之间有什么难题
黑夜我还想着你
心碎人孤寂
虽然我愿意

再让我靠近你轻轻对你说
当我说我要你从此好好过
是真的否则我怎么肯放手

为了我就当作这次为了我
赐给我你现在幸福的笑容
别让恨冻结了我们的脸孔
请你做选择

就算我们之间有什么问题
依然想念着你
虽然被放弃
虽然我愿意

就算我们之间有什么难题
黑夜我还想着你
心碎人孤寂
虽然我愿意

心碎人孤寂
虽然我愿意
就算我们之间有什么问题
依然想念着你
虽然被放弃
虽然我愿意

就算我们之间有什么难题
黑夜我还想着你
心碎人孤寂
虽然我愿意
(心还想着你)


Went to the doc today after work and got mc for tmr. My colleagues told me to just rest at home so i should just do so, since sunday need to go back work at 9am. tmr shall just rest at home and go to sch in the evening...feeling a bit better after taking the med but its making me drowsy so im going to sleep real soon.. just like the song i blog,second chance. Sometimes in life, we only have 1 chance and there would not be any second chance so we got to seize every opportunity we have in everything we do. Perhaps in our studies, relationships, work and stuffs. sometimes once the chance is gone, you will never have another chance to get it back. It is just so true especially to our studies and relationships. Lol. alright shall stop here. good night.


Faber Drive - Second Chance

I found the phone
I must've missed your message
You got it wrong, It wasn't what your friend said.
I can tell by your tone, I've taken it too far again.
Just when I thought I'd gone and fixed it all again.

Your friends are telling you, You gotta move on.
Just when I thought I'd gone and wrecked it all again.
You turned around so I could tell you what took so long.
I don't know why i ever waited to say.
Cuz I'm just dying just to see you again .

Instead of holding you, I was holding out.
I should've let you in, but I let you down.
You were the first to give ,I was the first to ask.
Now I'm in second place, to get a second chance.

I should've known, took you and I for granted
Gotta let you know, I was never underhanded.
Tell by your tone, I've taken it too far again.
Just when I thought I'd gone and fixed it all again.

My friends are telling me they saw you with someone.
Just when I thought I'd gone and wrecked it all again.
You turned around so I could tell you what took so long.
I don't know why i ever waited to say.
Cuz I'm just dying just to see you again .

Instead of holding you, I was holding out.
I should've let you in, but I let you down.
You were the first to give, I was the first to ask.
Now I'm in second place, to get a second chance.

My last mistake, putting my friends first.
I tried to laugh it off but I made things worse.
You were the first to give, I was the first to ask.
Now I'm in second place, to get a second chance.

What you give is always what you get.
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There's so much I haven't given yet.
It seems so different with(out) a second chance.
Just when I thought I'd gone and fixed it all again.

My friends are telling me they saw you with someone.
Just when I thought I'd gone and wrecked it all again.
You turned around so I could tell you what took so long.
I don't know why I ever waited to say.
Cuz I'm just dying just to see you again .

Instead of holding you, I was holding out.
I should've let you in, but I let you down.
You were the first to give, I was the first to ask.
Now I'm in second place, to get a second chance.

My last mistake, putting my friends first.
I tried to laugh it off but I made things worse.
You were the first to give I was the first to ask.
Now I'm in second place to get a second chance.

Instead of holding you, I was holding out
I should've let you in, but I let you down
You were the first to give, I was the first to ask
Now I'm in second place, to get a second chance.


I have fallen sick yesterday and was quite bad. Having a bad throat and fever. Gosh. In class i could not concentrate at all lah. Anyway, open letter box today as usual and saw the SMU letter already. It's a rejection letter. It states that 1/10 get the chance to enter cause 16000 ppl fighting for 1600 places. madness. Up next will be waiting for NTU and NUS letter.

Ryan, jiayou for ur Uni entry alright. be praying for u always. All the best for ur appeal to NTU. God will answer your prayer.

My current mood now is real tired and no mood le. Suddenly feeling a bit down cause im sick and haiz, some cg stuff as usual. Man,im losing my motivation and feeling discouraged. i really dunno why. i feel im stuck and cant move on anymore.



Happy Mothers' Day to all the mothers out there. Today morning went to church for service. Watched the drama and hear some touching testimony. Went to fellowship with my cg at Long John Silver after that and went for cg at 2pm at Liting's house. Was really very tired.

In the evening, headed over to Kovan and meet my mum there. Brought her to have Sakae Sushi and treated her a meal. Thank God for my mum cause without her, i would not be here. And being went through so much in the family, she is still strong and will be there for me. I love u mum. I pray that she will be saved one day in Jesus name.

Tmr will be another yet busy day. Pray for double portion of strength from God. Going to sleep real soon cause im really very tired and nothing for me to do already.

Anyway, Ryan if u are reading this post, I just want to say do not give up. keep on trying and everything will be well for u. Continue to trust in the Lord and he will direct your path. Jiayou ok? All the best.

Went to meet my cg today after work at Downtown East. only a few of them turn out. I tot more would be there. So anyway we ate at the stall named BBQ Chicken at Level 2 of the new mall. Not too bad.. haha. The new mall like nothing much to walk, but only more places to eat i guess. Left at abt 9pm and i walked to my bus stop quite far away alone. Reached home abt 10pm, went to bathe and came online.

Tmr is a long day for me anyway. getting up around 6am and meeting my colleague at 7am at hougang to take 74 to King Albert Park Mac for breakfast and then heading to SIM for econs lesson. Surely zombie, haha. after that i be going to my aunt house at Yew Tee to rest and then evening going to my uncle terrace house for family gathering, having BBQ session there. At night got to travel to clarke quay for my poly friend 21st bday celebration. lotsa 21st bday for me to attend this year. haha.

Sunday be going for service and then after that be cg. It's Mothers' Day and i cant really spend the day with my mum. Probably will treat her to eat somewhere next week when i dont have school ba. Anyway, my grandma from my mum side is suspected of cancer. Pls pray for her that she will be fine.


Today not as busy as previous days at work. Still alright but early in the morning my account got locked when i tried to change my password. crap lor. The time pass quite fast today too... anyway, in the evening stomach suddenly very pain, dunno why. Reached home, had my dinner slowly and then went online and have already booked my Final theory for driving. It will be on 4 July, 430pm. Woo, pray hard that i will pass on 1st attempt too so that can go out and have practical le. Tmr is Friday le, so fast. Will be meeting my CG at downtown east for dinner tmr. Saturday having econs lesson in the morning and then evening, BBQ at my uncle house and at night going for my poly friend 21st bday at some bar at clarke Quay. Woo, interesting. Haha. Tiring though but fun.


Woo. Been super busy at work this whole week. Manpower is down and the whole dept is in crisis. Lotsa applications for car loans coming in. Yet, today COE decreased. Oh my, gonna be real busy. 1 of my colleague kana reservist and shrot notice so another man down. And we were even told that 18 May, Sunday need to go back to work cause the next COE will be even more busy. oh no. hate this cause it is really tiring.

Anyway, missed Maths lesson today due to my basic theory test which i booked in Feb. Thank God that me and my friend pass on our 1st attempt. So will be booking for Final Theory soon. Hopefully can pass that on 1st attempt too. After the test, went to eat with my friend at S11 at AMK. hehe. really happy that i passed the test. Me and my friend completed it in ard 25 mins. checked my answer once through. Be prepared for a busy day tmr le.


Woo. was so busy over the weekends. haha. tiring though but fun. Had school in the morning as usual on Sat and then headed to Pasir Ris for my lunch, slack around and went expo for service. After service, met Sok Feng and Meiyi at Pasir Ris and took a bus down to Aranda for Shing Hwee's chalet. hehe. It's her 21st bday celebration. So we ate and then chit chat and had lotsa fun. Did not really sleep much though as I was on the sofa. haha. actually never really sabo her also lah. lolx!

Sunday went to teach tuition in the morning and went back chalet at 3 plus to find my friends again. Went to wild wild wet with them and had great fun. haha. playing in the water and so on. lolx. we played till abt 6pm and head back to the chalet and carry on our BBQ session. We were really tired but still happy. haha... Reached home abt 11 plus and flat on the bed.

Today was really busy at work due to COE bidding and manpower down. Still lotsa cases left to be done for tmr. God I pray for strength to carry on.


Today is public holiday. Woo. but tmr nd to go back to work.lolx...woke up at 12plus today and went online. had my lunch at 3pm then went for cg in the evening. CG was great but when cg ended somehw atmosphere so wierd.

Yesterday, i overslept cause i never set alarm the previous night when i sleep. i was in my dreams and then woke up got stun and still thinking is it holiday. madness. and went to work i tot it was COE bidding. dunno what went wrong with me. argh!

Pray to God that my days will get better each day and one day my awaited angel will appear again...lotsa things need to be done by me.. praying that N283 will have a breakthrough too and for my own connect group. Sometimes I really dunno wat to do anymore. Only can pray to God and seek for help. really need things to work for the better in my own life and the CG as well. God, please strengthen me and encourage me...

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*Fiona
*Genesis
*Gladys
*Guiling
*Guo Xiong
*Hui Tian
*Irene
*Ivan
*Jasmine
*Jason(CHC SP)
*Jieyong
*Jill
*Joan
*Kaishing
*Kairen
*kaiyin
*kristen
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*Lee Min
*Liangying
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Of all the things I believe in
I just want to get it over with
tears from behind my eyes
but I do not cry
Counting the days that past me by

I've been searching deep down in my soul
Words that I'm hearing are starting to get old
Looks like I'm starting all over again
The last three years were just pretend and I say

Goodbye to you
Goodbye to everything I thought I knew
You were the one I love
The one thing that I tried to hold on to

I still get lost in your eyes
And it seems like I can't live a day without you
Closing my eyes till you chase my thoughts away
To a place where I am blinded by the light but it's not right

Goodbye to you
Goodbye to everything I thought I knew
You were the one I loved
The one thing that I tried to hold on to

Ohhh yeah
It hurts to want everything & nothing at the same time
I want whats yours and I want whats mine
I want you but I'm not giving in this time

Goodbye to you
Goodbye to everything I thought I knew
You were the one I loved
The one thing that I tried to hold on to
The one thing that I tried to hold on to

Goodbye to you
Goodbye to everything I thought I knew
You were the one I loved
The one thing that I tried to hold on to

We the stars fall and I lie awake
Your my shooting star


Few more days to exam le. Having Maths on 3 June and Econs on 4 June. Went out to Yishun Mac to mug yesterday till this morning 7 plus. It's really madness. People come Mac for breakfast but me and my friends are actually there since yesterday, never sleep kind and mugging. Maths seems alright for me le, just have to conquer Econs. It's true madness having so many graphs to draw and theory. Anyway, me and David were trying to figure out the matrixes yesterday. I still decide to give it up cause it is simply a waste of time doing so many steps just for a few marks.lolx..it really crack my brain trying to change those rows of numbers.

Morning, David friend Wee Hiong came to find us at Mac and then we went to have breakfast at Chong Pang. Been ages since i went there. haha..back to my hometown. lol...then after that sent Wendy home first and then he sent me home. Reached home around 9am and flat on bed once again. Set my alarm 330pm and when it went off im still dreaming on the bed... it's like so fast need to wake up. But i was very tired so i just laid on the bed and finally get up at 5pm. Went to get food and just finish eating so here i am blogging. Need to go bathe and go CG soon. Real tired...


Im Officially on leave from work yesterday and mugging starts yesterday. Had class yesterday but it ended at 830pm. Crap lor. the lecturer says dunno what to revise anymore and so release us from the class. Went to eat with Wendy,David and Max at CLementi and head off to Airport T2 to study with Wendy and David. We mug until 7 plus in the morning today. Reached home ard 9 am and flat on the bed. Woke up at 6 plus, went to shower and have my 1st meal of the day. lol! was rather tired still. Started mugging for econs around 8 plus and Im going out to meet Wendy and the rest again to study but this time going to Yishun Mac, somewhere nearer to all of us. Guess be home tmr morning again le.lol. Pls continue to pray for me and that I will be able to pass my bridging course.

Anyway, congrats to Ryan for officially graduating from SP yesterday. Just too bad that i cant be there to see you graduating but i did do so on the webcast. Alright i shall update again soon


Had a rather busy and tiring day at work today. Did OT for 2 hours and just finished my dinner. Soon it will be time to go to bed again. That's how fast my time fly. Anyway, today my head asked me about my local uni application and say when i know already tell her, cause she wanna know whether im staying or leaving the company. my contract ends on July 9 but right now, thinking should i work another 1 month to earn a bit more money before i go to school. Maybe i should and can spend more time with my colleagues too. A bit cant bear to leave them now, haha...anyway, shall see what to say to my head, rather tough to tell her. lol... going to watch show again and study a bit too before sleeping.

What Tan Li Ping Sharon Means

You are a seeker. You often find yourself restless - and you have a lot of questions about life. You tend to travel often, to fairly random locations. You're most comfortable when you're far away from home. You are quite passionate and easily tempted. Your impulses sometimes get you into trouble. You are usually the best at everything ... you strive for perfection. You are confident, authoritative, and aggressive. You have the classic "Type A" personality. You are very intuitive and wise. You understand the world better than most people. You also have a very active imagination. You often get carried away with your thoughts. You are prone to a little paranoia and jealousy. You sometimes go overboard in interpreting signals. You are relaxed, chill, and very likely to go with the flow. You are light hearted and accepting. You don't get worked up easily. Well adjusted and incredibly happy, many people wonder what your secret to life is. You tend to be pretty tightly wound. It's easy to get you excited... which can be a good or bad thing. You have a lot of enthusiasm, but it fades rather quickly. You don't stick with any one thing for very long. You have the drive to accomplish a lot in a short amount of time. Your biggest problem is making sure you finish the projects you start. You are influential and persuasive. You tend to have a lot of power over people. Generally, you use your powers for good. You excel at solving other people's problems. Occasionally, you do get a little selfish and persuade people to do things that are only in your interest. You are deeply philosophical and thoughtful. You tend to analyze every aspect of your life. You are intuitive, brilliant, and quite introverted. You value your time alone. Often times, you are grumpy with other people. You don't appreciate them trying to interfere in your affairs. You are the total package - suave, sexy, smart, and strong. You have the whole world under your spell, and you can influence almost everyone you know. You don't always resist your urges to crush the weak. Just remember, they don't have as much going for them as you do. You are truly an original person. You have amazing ideas, and the power to carry them out. Success comes rather easily for you... especially in business and academia. Some people find you to be selfish and a bit overbearing. You're a strong person. You are wild, crazy, and a huge rebel. You're always up to something. You have a ton of energy, and most people can't handle you. You're very intense. You definitely are a handful, and you're likely to get in trouble. But your kind of trouble is a lot of fun. You are well rounded, with a complete perspective on life. You are solid and dependable. You are loyal, and people can count on you. At times, you can be a bit too serious. You tend to put too much pressure on yourself.

Just completed watching the 9pm show on Mobtv. Well,the story is rather sad but however the ending was a happy ending in the end. Christopher Lee sacrificed himself and so on. Shall not say so much. See for yourself, haha. Anyway, how i wish in real life, we can have second chances and even third chances to change our life around, to turn every situation around. It would be good if in real life, there is a wishing well as well where we can go and wish for things to start all over again or turn back in time. I think im thinking too much now but well, sometimes i really hope i can start over my whole life once again and see what's the outcome or rather never start this life at all. I think im somehow nuts already.

Alright, nothing much to add on. very tired already but yet like cant sleep feeling. still got to try to slp so i shall stop here then.


Hi readers! hows everyone? been few days since i last blogged. Well, this week was very busy at work cause it's COE bidding week and everyday there is lotsa application to process. Had school on Tues and Wed as usual. Maths ended already. Today had Econs lesson in the morning as well. So tired. Im really scare with Econs cause rather tough and hard to understand the question. Really need to pray for wisdom and understanding. Exam is coming up on 3 and 4 June. Pls pray for me that i will pass so that i can successfully proceed to Year 2 instead of starting with the whole year 1. Going to start revision tmr and Wed i will be officially on leave for 1 week. Need to study and mug again.

By the way, just received NUS rejection letter today. kind of expected anyway, haha. Waiting for NTU to come. Guess the outcome will be reject also. I think it is God's will that I am to study at SIM. Cause somehow for SIM, everything just went on smoothly. FOr example, able to take loan on time and also i never select bridging when i apply for the course but somehow the person called me and told me about it. If not i wun be given the chance to take bridging and i will waste 1 whole year. So i think it is really God's plan.

Going mobtv to watch the 9pm show le. lol. i cant wait to watch each day, haha. somehow really addicted to the show. But before watching, im going to practise my guitar cause tmr having lesson. haha...


Spent the whole of Vesak Day at home. Slept at 3 plus last night and woke up at 3 plus today. Came online and continued watching the drama bian zou qu. It's really nice and touching. certain scenes are really touching. Watching it really shows how life is and so on. Bascially for those who never watch this drama, it is about this gal which jeanette aw is playing that role, she is trap in her past and living in the shadow of it. Her bf actually died and so she could not let go of it and still holding on to it.

Elvin Ng who is playing the role of zhiyuan resembles her bf and so she sort of take her as him and she also get to know Christopher Lee who plays the role of Junjie when she enrols in school of architecture. It's really a relationship that is so complicated cause there is love here n there. Saw some preview online and i think the ending will be rather sad as there will be death of some love ones.

Anyway, cant wait to keep on watching the show. haha. but tmr and the rest of the week would not be able to watch cause have school at night and so on. So will catch it online soon again. Watching this show can really get emo at times.lolx. alright, im going off. after taking my medicine, i am getting drowsy.


My tears run down like razorblades
And no, I'm not the one to blame
It's you, or is it me?
And all the words we never say
Come out and now we're all ashamed
And there's no sense in playing games
When you've done all you can do

But now it's over, it's over, why is it over?
We had the chance to make it
Now it's over, it's over, it can't be over
I wish that I could take it back
But it's over

I lose myself in all these fights
I lose my sense of wrong and right
I cry, I cry
It's shaking from the pain that's in my head
I just wanna crawl into my bed
And throw away the life I led
But I won't let it die, but I won't let it die

But it's over, it's over, why is it over?
We had the chance to make it
Now it's over, it's over, it can't be over
I wish that I could take it back

I'm falling apart, I'm falling apart
Don't say this won't last forever
You're breaking my heart, you're breaking my heart
Don't tell me that we will never be together
We could be, over and over
We could be, forever

I'm falling apart, I'm falling apart
Don't say this won't last forever
You're breaking my heart, you're breaking my heart
Don't tell me that we will never be together
We could be, over and over
We could be, forever

It's not over, it's not over, it's never over
Unless you let it take you
It's not over, it's not over, it's not over
Unless you let it break you
It's not over


Went back to work on Sunday morning and ended at 1 plus. was really tired as i have not recovered from my flu. Cleared some work and tuesday would have more to go. Left my office around 1 plus and my colleague Edison sent me home. Thanks a lot. Think i have lost some weight this week. Went home, had my lunch and then i slept at 4 plus and woke up at 8 plus.

So came back online and watched my drama show. Now catching the channel 8 9pm show online. Quite a nice show showing all the relationships going on etc. Soon, my bridging course is ending and exam is approaching. Time really flies. Pray hard that i will pass my exam in June and then will move on in my studies in Aug. I am still wondering where is my NTU and NUS letter. Some says no news is good news. Probably i still have chance. Well,shall just wait for the letter to drop in my letter box soon i guess.

Tmr will be just spending another day at home resting and prepare for work and school on Tues. What i need now is really lotsa rest so that i will have the strength to work and study.


伍家辉 - 虽然我愿意

请让我靠近你轻轻对你说
别让我每个夜为你受折磨
是多么不容易才默默放手

为了我就当作这次为了我
别让我因为你被回忆折磨
而空气凝结了我们的脸孔
我别无选择

就算我们之间有什么问题
依然想念着你
虽然被放弃
虽然我愿意

就算我们之间有什么难题
黑夜我还想着你
心碎人孤寂
虽然我愿意

再让我靠近你轻轻对你说
当我说我要你从此好好过
是真的否则我怎么肯放手

为了我就当作这次为了我
赐给我你现在幸福的笑容
别让恨冻结了我们的脸孔
请你做选择

就算我们之间有什么问题
依然想念着你
虽然被放弃
虽然我愿意

就算我们之间有什么难题
黑夜我还想着你
心碎人孤寂
虽然我愿意

心碎人孤寂
虽然我愿意
就算我们之间有什么问题
依然想念着你
虽然被放弃
虽然我愿意

就算我们之间有什么难题
黑夜我还想着你
心碎人孤寂
虽然我愿意
(心还想着你)


Went to the doc today after work and got mc for tmr. My colleagues told me to just rest at home so i should just do so, since sunday need to go back work at 9am. tmr shall just rest at home and go to sch in the evening...feeling a bit better after taking the med but its making me drowsy so im going to sleep real soon.. just like the song i blog,second chance. Sometimes in life, we only have 1 chance and there would not be any second chance so we got to seize every opportunity we have in everything we do. Perhaps in our studies, relationships, work and stuffs. sometimes once the chance is gone, you will never have another chance to get it back. It is just so true especially to our studies and relationships. Lol. alright shall stop here. good night.


Faber Drive - Second Chance

I found the phone
I must've missed your message
You got it wrong, It wasn't what your friend said.
I can tell by your tone, I've taken it too far again.
Just when I thought I'd gone and fixed it all again.

Your friends are telling you, You gotta move on.
Just when I thought I'd gone and wrecked it all again.
You turned around so I could tell you what took so long.
I don't know why i ever waited to say.
Cuz I'm just dying just to see you again .

Instead of holding you, I was holding out.
I should've let you in, but I let you down.
You were the first to give ,I was the first to ask.
Now I'm in second place, to get a second chance.

I should've known, took you and I for granted
Gotta let you know, I was never underhanded.
Tell by your tone, I've taken it too far again.
Just when I thought I'd gone and fixed it all again.

My friends are telling me they saw you with someone.
Just when I thought I'd gone and wrecked it all again.
You turned around so I could tell you what took so long.
I don't know why i ever waited to say.
Cuz I'm just dying just to see you again .

Instead of holding you, I was holding out.
I should've let you in, but I let you down.
You were the first to give, I was the first to ask.
Now I'm in second place, to get a second chance.

My last mistake, putting my friends first.
I tried to laugh it off but I made things worse.
You were the first to give, I was the first to ask.
Now I'm in second place, to get a second chance.

What you give is always what you get.
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There's so much I haven't given yet.
It seems so different with(out) a second chance.
Just when I thought I'd gone and fixed it all again.

My friends are telling me they saw you with someone.
Just when I thought I'd gone and wrecked it all again.
You turned around so I could tell you what took so long.
I don't know why I ever waited to say.
Cuz I'm just dying just to see you again .

Instead of holding you, I was holding out.
I should've let you in, but I let you down.
You were the first to give, I was the first to ask.
Now I'm in second place, to get a second chance.

My last mistake, putting my friends first.
I tried to laugh it off but I made things worse.
You were the first to give I was the first to ask.
Now I'm in second place to get a second chance.

Instead of holding you, I was holding out
I should've let you in, but I let you down
You were the first to give, I was the first to ask
Now I'm in second place, to get a second chance.


I have fallen sick yesterday and was quite bad. Having a bad throat and fever. Gosh. In class i could not concentrate at all lah. Anyway, open letter box today as usual and saw the SMU letter already. It's a rejection letter. It states that 1/10 get the chance to enter cause 16000 ppl fighting for 1600 places. madness. Up next will be waiting for NTU and NUS letter.

Ryan, jiayou for ur Uni entry alright. be praying for u always. All the best for ur appeal to NTU. God will answer your prayer.

My current mood now is real tired and no mood le. Suddenly feeling a bit down cause im sick and haiz, some cg stuff as usual. Man,im losing my motivation and feeling discouraged. i really dunno why. i feel im stuck and cant move on anymore.



Happy Mothers' Day to all the mothers out there. Today morning went to church for service. Watched the drama and hear some touching testimony. Went to fellowship with my cg at Long John Silver after that and went for cg at 2pm at Liting's house. Was really very tired.

In the evening, headed over to Kovan and meet my mum there. Brought her to have Sakae Sushi and treated her a meal. Thank God for my mum cause without her, i would not be here. And being went through so much in the family, she is still strong and will be there for me. I love u mum. I pray that she will be saved one day in Jesus name.

Tmr will be another yet busy day. Pray for double portion of strength from God. Going to sleep real soon cause im really very tired and nothing for me to do already.

Anyway, Ryan if u are reading this post, I just want to say do not give up. keep on trying and everything will be well for u. Continue to trust in the Lord and he will direct your path. Jiayou ok? All the best.

Went to meet my cg today after work at Downtown East. only a few of them turn out. I tot more would be there. So anyway we ate at the stall named BBQ Chicken at Level 2 of the new mall. Not too bad.. haha. The new mall like nothing much to walk, but only more places to eat i guess. Left at abt 9pm and i walked to my bus stop quite far away alone. Reached home abt 10pm, went to bathe and came online.

Tmr is a long day for me anyway. getting up around 6am and meeting my colleague at 7am at hougang to take 74 to King Albert Park Mac for breakfast and then heading to SIM for econs lesson. Surely zombie, haha. after that i be going to my aunt house at Yew Tee to rest and then evening going to my uncle terrace house for family gathering, having BBQ session there. At night got to travel to clarke quay for my poly friend 21st bday celebration. lotsa 21st bday for me to attend this year. haha.

Sunday be going for service and then after that be cg. It's Mothers' Day and i cant really spend the day with my mum. Probably will treat her to eat somewhere next week when i dont have school ba. Anyway, my grandma from my mum side is suspected of cancer. Pls pray for her that she will be fine.


Today not as busy as previous days at work. Still alright but early in the morning my account got locked when i tried to change my password. crap lor. The time pass quite fast today too... anyway, in the evening stomach suddenly very pain, dunno why. Reached home, had my dinner slowly and then went online and have already booked my Final theory for driving. It will be on 4 July, 430pm. Woo, pray hard that i will pass on 1st attempt too so that can go out and have practical le. Tmr is Friday le, so fast. Will be meeting my CG at downtown east for dinner tmr. Saturday having econs lesson in the morning and then evening, BBQ at my uncle house and at night going for my poly friend 21st bday at some bar at clarke Quay. Woo, interesting. Haha. Tiring though but fun.


Woo. Been super busy at work this whole week. Manpower is down and the whole dept is in crisis. Lotsa applications for car loans coming in. Yet, today COE decreased. Oh my, gonna be real busy. 1 of my colleague kana reservist and shrot notice so another man down. And we were even told that 18 May, Sunday need to go back to work cause the next COE will be even more busy. oh no. hate this cause it is really tiring.

Anyway, missed Maths lesson today due to my basic theory test which i booked in Feb. Thank God that me and my friend pass on our 1st attempt. So will be booking for Final Theory soon. Hopefully can pass that on 1st attempt too. After the test, went to eat with my friend at S11 at AMK. hehe. really happy that i passed the test. Me and my friend completed it in ard 25 mins. checked my answer once through. Be prepared for a busy day tmr le.


Woo. was so busy over the weekends. haha. tiring though but fun. Had school in the morning as usual on Sat and then headed to Pasir Ris for my lunch, slack around and went expo for service. After service, met Sok Feng and Meiyi at Pasir Ris and took a bus down to Aranda for Shing Hwee's chalet. hehe. It's her 21st bday celebration. So we ate and then chit chat and had lotsa fun. Did not really sleep much though as I was on the sofa. haha. actually never really sabo her also lah. lolx!

Sunday went to teach tuition in the morning and went back chalet at 3 plus to find my friends again. Went to wild wild wet with them and had great fun. haha. playing in the water and so on. lolx. we played till abt 6pm and head back to the chalet and carry on our BBQ session. We were really tired but still happy. haha... Reached home abt 11 plus and flat on the bed.

Today was really busy at work due to COE bidding and manpower down. Still lotsa cases left to be done for tmr. God I pray for strength to carry on.


Today is public holiday. Woo. but tmr nd to go back to work.lolx...woke up at 12plus today and went online. had my lunch at 3pm then went for cg in the evening. CG was great but when cg ended somehw atmosphere so wierd.

Yesterday, i overslept cause i never set alarm the previous night when i sleep. i was in my dreams and then woke up got stun and still thinking is it holiday. madness. and went to work i tot it was COE bidding. dunno what went wrong with me. argh!

Pray to God that my days will get better each day and one day my awaited angel will appear again...lotsa things need to be done by me.. praying that N283 will have a breakthrough too and for my own connect group. Sometimes I really dunno wat to do anymore. Only can pray to God and seek for help. really need things to work for the better in my own life and the CG as well. God, please strengthen me and encourage me...

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