The day passes quite fast today. was not so busy in the morning but after lunch, i got more busy processing cases and i started doing automax cases as well. Learning in progress. so far so good. Their cases are more challenging cause we have to fully process everything, do discreet checks before we can actually submit. Was getting rather tired towards end of the day and suddenly, i feel like no oxygen like tat, is like my head suddenly dunno wat happen. Feel like so tight tat kind of feeling. Maybe too tired.. So anyway, next tues got to go meeting for xmas party. I got nominated by my colleagues to represent them in the committee to plan xmas party. Pray for ideas ba,haha.if you people got ideas like what to do for xmas party etc, pls tag and let me know.haha. asap before tues so that i can contribute my ideas. thanks thanks! im so tired now.. waiting for 9pm show, after that should be read the bible and then off to bed le. Tmr is friday le, so fast and it ends November. Time flies. 2008 is nearing.

When You're Gone
I always needed time on my own
I never thought I’d need you there when I cry
And the days feel like years when I’m alone
And the bed where you lie
is made up on your side

When you walk away
I count the steps that you take
Do you see how much I need you right now?

When you’re gone
The pieces of my heart are missing you
When you’re gone
The face I came to know is missing too
When you’re gone
All the words I need to hear to always get me through the day
And make it OK
I miss you

I’ve never felt this way before
Everything that I do
Reminds me of you
And the clothes you left
they lie on my floor
And they smell just like you
I love the things that you do

When you walk away
I count the steps that you take

Do you see how much I need you right now?

When you’re gone
The pieces of my heart are missing you
When you’re gone
The face I came to know is missing too
And when you’re gone
The words I need to hear to always get me through the day
And make it OK
I miss you

We were made for each other
Out here forever
I know we were
Yeah Yeah

All I ever wanted was for you to know
Everything I do I give my heart and soul
I can hardly breathe, I need to feel you here with me
Yeah

When you’re gone
The pieces of my heart are missing you
When you’re gone
The face I came to know is missing too
When you’re gone
The words I need to hear will always get me through the day
And make it OK
I miss you




Just got home not long ago. went Bugis today to meet adalene, rong jian and guo xiong was there too. Want to find Renzheng bday gift today so i told them to meet up. So anyway met them ard 7pm, then we went walk around and after that ard 8pm we went food court to eat and head off to Bugis street. So after getting Huitian's approval to what to buy, we then proceed. Saw a real cute dog! so cute! it's a puppy! I have the urge to want to carry it home,haha! I simply love cute dogs!cute things capture my attention. I want my own dog! i wish..So after getting it, went to Bossini to find my friend Baoling, cause her friend wanted to buy something there and me being born in 1987, will have additional 20% discount cause they having 20th anniversary, so yeah..haha. the cashier so funny, look at my NRIC pic and then look at me and then say, wah, how come lose so much weight.lolx!

After that, walked together with adalene to O school to find Liting for practise of dance for breakaway event. Went up and take a look at O school. relaxing place.haha. Then saw some people dancing, real cool.

Oh ya, today when i was about to leave office, my head came to me and asked if could talk to me. I thought what is it man. Then sat down and she said so how's work now? enjoying? then i says ok ar, not too bad. Then she said, your face tells that you are enjoying,i was like inside me saying is it? So she said she is very happy with my work performance, says that i improved drastically and hit the monthly target. After which, she shoot me with the question, if i transfer you over to Automax are u ok with it? cause they short people and so on, then i said im alrite. Dunno why she choose me anyway cause i never tried doing their cases before. Their cases require full process and more tough as compared to distributorship whereby we are processing new cars. Automax is old cars and new cars. Their volume is a lot so short of people. so from tmr, i will be asked to learn doing their cases and soon i will need to shift my seat over le. Pray that everything will be just fine for me at work. Wonder how my lunch time and also who to cover my leave etc.

Woo, what a long post today. More happenings today so yeah. Pray for a great day ahead tmr and everything to be just fine. Soon is going to December. Another new month, another new beginning. Seems like every new mth i got new beginnings. Nov was one, Dec another new beginning,new things to learn. Gonna go to bed now, suddenly got headache, very tired. Nitez reader. Below is a song that is nice and emo.

Wait for You
I never felt nothing in the world like this before
Now I'm missing you
& I'm wishing that you would come back through my door
Why did you have to go? You could have let me know
So now I'm all alone,
Girl you could have stayed
but you wouldnt give me a chance
With you not around it's a little bit more then i can stand
And all my tears they keep running down my face
Why did you turn away?

So why does your pride make you run and hide?
Are you that afraid of me?
But I know it's a lie what you keep inside
This is not how you wanted to be

So baby I will wait for you
Cause I don''t know what else i can do
Don't tell me I ran out of time
If it takes the rest of my life

Baby I will wait for you
If you think I'm fine it just aint true
I really need you in my life
No matter what i have to do I'll wait for you

It's been a long time since you called me
(How could you forget about me)
You got me feeling crazy (crazy)
How can you walk away,
Everything stays the same
I just can't do it baby
What will it take to make you come back
Girl I told you what it is & it just ain't like that
Why can't you look at me, your still in love with me
Don't leave me crying.

Baby why can't we just start over again
Get it back to the way it was
If you give me a chance I can love you right
But your telling me it wont be enough

So baby I will wait for you
Cause I don''t know what else i can do
Don't tell me I ran out of time
If it takes the rest of my life

Baby I will wait for you
If you think I'm fine it just aint true
I really need you in my life
No matter what i have to do I'll wait for you

So why does you pride make you run & hide
Are you that afriad of me?
But I know it's a lie what your keeping inside
Thats not how you wanted to be

Baby I will wait for you
Baby I will wait for you
If it's the last thing i do

Baby I will wait for you
Cause I don''t know what else i can do
Don't tell me I ran out of time
If it takes the rest of my life

Baby I will wait for you
If you think I'm fine it just aint true
I really need you in my life
No matter what i have to do I'll wait for you

I'll Be Waiting.



Had a rather boring day today, not very busy at work so was like yawning away, getting tired as i wait for time to pass. today got zone prayer meeting at riverwalk for breakaway at 7pm but i did not go cause sure late anyway since i end work at 6 plus.. so anyway got home ard 720pm then went to shower and eat my dinner, relaxed around and here i am blogging...nothing much happened today also..anyway the dragon boat tragedy that happened is so sad..tells us we should really treasure every moment we have and with our loved ones. once gone, forever gone..soon is going to December and there will be 2 Public Hols which are Hari Raya Haji on 20 dec and Xmas itself on 25 Dec...time to shop for gifts and think hard what to buy again..the year is coming to an end soon and i hope for a better 2008, better things ahead. Gonna practise my guitar now and wait for 9pm show to start. ciaoz. do tag me readers.


Reached home around 730pm today, did not OT..start of the day was quite busy and the time was flying..During lunch, it rained so heavily and we were stuck at keypoint for some time, then shared umbrella with my colleagues but still got wet somehow..after lunch was more manageable...so now eating my dinner and blogging at the same time...still feeling a bit down, dunno why ar. am i in depression? haiz..Keep praying that I will be alrite and so on...heal all my hurts completely and so on... haiz...at times really want to lose all the bad memories...so sian...hate the feeling of being alone...pray for a better future of mine...


Ytd i was somehow very moody, i dunno why. just so pek chek suddenly. Inside me is like going to explode anytime. The way i talked was like so pek chek already and i was like argh. dunno wats wrong with me..so ytd nothing much also, just went service etc then nicole meet me at night and come my house stay cause today going out.

Today went out in the morning with my parents go eat lunch, never really eat though, then after that went Bugis to meet my sis and Amanda and went shop around. Sis bless me financially for my birthday. did not get anything from Levis or Ed Hardy. I got 2 tops, 1 from far east and another from this fashion. New style. So anyway, today dunno why i also quite down, moody,haiz. no appetite to eat at all. whole day, i just had the lunch, drink the pork rib soup and some rice, then my dinner was just tako balls tats all. Haiz..


Well, Take Mc today, Woke up in the morning and decided not to go to work. Was rather tired and hmm, stomach also a bit wierd though, so decided to go to the doctor. So went to Hougang polyclinic see doctor. so anyway the doctor asks me to eat more fruits also cause she says constipation i think.. then anyway, bought this roll on for sweaty palms, hope it helps to subside at least..later will be going out to meet my cell grp members and then after that tonight got cell grp..Was just watching this show Mars vs Venus again, on crunchyroll..it's a nice show and touching and what they say is so true. It's about man and woman differences and so on..so caught this from the show ending..

Short hair can grow again
Happiness that is lost may not be found again
Dont take a happy marriage for granted
A lasting happy marriage needs to be worked at.


So fast tmr is friday again. Woo. Today somehow rotting around in office. nothing much to do then after that i was doing some credit cards things and then called for meeting about credit cards again. So much things to check and do for them, so crap. My colleagues all oso sian abt work already... Just so tired..

Anyway, reached home ard 7 plus today then mum told me i forgot off the fan when i went out today, oops. She came home in the morning cause she had a fall at work and went to chinese physician then came back home. Hope she get well soon.

Nothing much to blog, shall update again soon. Looking forward to weekends


Yesterday during midnight, suddenly i was feeling very uncomfortable..keep getting up and went to take my temperature and man, i was down with fever..i was like groaning in pain sort of on the bed and even almost fell off and i dunno why. im in dunno what state already. Was feeling real sick and weak..intended to take MC but then this morning i woke up and still went ahead to work. Was feeling real tired and kind of weak. Did not even finish my lunch. Could not eat. Pray for more strength ba. Hope will be better day tmr.


Im so worn out. Physically and mentally. Did not eat alot for dinner, cant eat. Just need to rest. Today at work rather busy too, and stomach was hurting here n there. Then i got more tired and weak till i almost wanted to collapse soon and work just keep on piling up...then my colleague Gary walked past and he said sharon why u so tired ar, i say ya tired ar.. anyway, today reminds me of that time when i was in great pain and i almost blacked out twice in a day and he was with me. If today i were to black out again at office, i wonder what will happen..

Nowadays, listening to some songs brought back memories and at times,tears might just roll. Im quite Emo so ya lor..Memories will always be there to stay of course, but i actually already moved on. Cause I know my God has plans for my life, my future, He cares for me. Cast all your burdens unto Him for He cares for you. I do miss the times when someone is there for me.

我知道故事不会太曲折
我总会遇见一个什么人
陪我过没有了他/她的人生
成家立业之类的等等
他/她做了他觉得对的选择
我只好祝福他真的对了
爱不到我最想要爱的人
谁还能要我怎样呢
我爱的人不是我的爱人
他/她心里每一寸都
属于另一个人
他/她真幸福
幸福得真残忍
让我又爱又恨 他/她的爱怎么那么深
我爱的人 他/她已有了爱人
从他们的眼神 说明了我不可能
每当听见他/她或他说「我们」
就像听见爱情永恒的嘲笑声

This song can really cry. Heard from Denise blog.


Another day has gone by. So fast. Today was rather busy at work and system was down so was waiting all the time for searches to return and then can proceed to process the case. OT today again...left office ard 720pm then went to take bus home. so now here i am blogging. just finish dinner and showering, nw just resting around a while..so tired...yesterday went for service and it's great. Pastor Phil painted the cross with Jesus, nice painting.haha. Whoever buys it will be blessed. After service went to eat with Liting at Tampines then went to Jieyong house for guitar lesson. My 1st lesson with him after so long...so anyway, learnt new strumming and yes, will practise hard and work on my dream to be a CG guitarist! Pray that i can be one by next year.

Shall end my post here. nothing much to blog about. My heart is crying silently and only God knows.

The Click Five- Empty

Tried to take a picture
Of love
Didn't think I'd miss her
That much
I want to fill this new frame
But its empty

Tried to write a letter
In ink
Its been getting better
I think
I got a piece of paper
But its empty
Its empty

Maybe we're trying
Trying too hard
Maybe we're torn apart
Maybe the timing
Is beating our hearts
We're empty

And I've even wondered
If we
Should be getting under
These sheets
We could lie in this bed
But its empty
Its empty

Maybe we're trying
Trying too hard
Maybe we're torn apart
Maybe the timing
Is beating our hearts
We're empty

Oh oh
Oh oh
Oooooh
Oh oh
Oh oh

Maybe we're trying
Trying too hard
Maybe we're torn apart
Maybe the timing
Is beating our hearts
We're empty

We're empty


What an awesome service today! It's something new as Pastor Phil Pringle Paints and Preaches at the same time. well, he is really an anointed and talented artist. He paint so well. Real awesome. I can never do that, haha. He paints the Last Supper today. Jesus and the 12 Disciples at the table. woo. a very nice painting of his but haha, cant afford to buy his paintings cause it costs thousands!

Presence of God was very strong too, since praise. it's great. Simply love the House of God. At the end of the service, Pastor Tan tells us that do not worry, give all to God. Indeed really got to leave all to God and trusts him, He cares about us, everything about us and he promised to give a future and a hope. God has great plans for us and we may not know them but yes, it will come to pass. Tmr, Pastor Phil be painting the Cross. It will be another great service to look forward to. Gonna sleep soon cause im real tired and im falling sick soon. Good Nite Readers. Do Tag me more often peeps! Im home alone now. Going sleep


Just got home from work. tired ar! Now eating my lunch then i got to rush to expo for service le. so tired now. need strength, argh! Feeling a bit sick like tat soon..drained completely.


More and more OTs! Woo! Madness! Tmr is Saturday and guess what? i have to report to office at 930am and God knows what time we will work until cause got no idea. it depends on how fast we do our work. Got to go back and do credit cards, do approval and so on. Pray that it will end early so that i got time to go church at expo or maybe can go home then change first. Shall see what happens tmr. This whole week really OT all the way. More money is coming though but it is rather tiring. So nowadays i will usually sleep ard 1030pm to 11 plus. really too tired and i need lotsa energy the next day.

Today lunched with Christopher at Concourse BK. Cause no one lunch with me. My colleague on leave today then my mentor says not lunching with me. then i sms Chris then he called me, so anyway he was nearby so lunched together. Thanks for lunching with me else i be alone. Had cg today as well. Reached Cg at 8pm, 45 mins late due to OT. Rushed down after work. Thank God i did not miss the prayer meeting. when i reached was just ending ministering session. Had a great prayer meeting. Lets see our cg hit 20 people by December! N283 lets jiayou! See this vision and reach for it! Confess it and pray over it! Think, Believe,Dream, Speak! Let's be pregnant with this vision and give birth to it at the end of Dec! N283 Rox!


God I need more of your strength. OT today till 7 plus and walked to beach road to meet my cgm for dinner. they met at 6 Plus to go army mkt to find shoe,haha. I wanted to go find converse sneaker there too but i OT, and close shop le.well, planning to either go Queenstown with Rong Jian and Cass to go find or see how ba...This whole week really everyday OT except for tues but supposingly also need want..more money coming from all the OT but it's tiring and kind of no life cause by the time i reached home, bathe, eat and so on, it is time to sleep soon.

Well, want to go dye hair with Suwei soon. Time to get rid of my black hair. prefer my coloured hair,haha..so hopefully next week after work can go with her at Serangoon here cause it's cheap and it's near my house too,haha..Pray that i dun need OT...This week really pass so fast and tmr is friday already. Might be very late for my cg tmr and it's PM tmr so will end quite fast..if i OT i will surely miss it...shall see what happens tmr. 2 of my colleagues are on leave at the same time tmr and monday,which means left 4 of us and 1 of them doing credit cards so left 3 of us. will be sure busy...So im gonna sleep real soon cause really need enuff rest. Just now even take bus and overshot, never alight cause i fell asleep then still blur blur. so alighted 2 stops later and walked back home..


As the title suggest, yes gonna have more OTs at work le cause of credit cards. can earn more money but also mean lesser time to rest...today reached home ard 9pm, then went to bathe and eat my dinner. So here i am blogging now and later wanna play guitar and then i guess i will go and sleep le. So fast already thurs tmr, just dont have the feeling...So anyway, today injured my finger with the staple at work, the back of it hurt it and the skin came out and it bleed. and dunno how come my left thigh is super pain, seems like being strained or what..hope tmr will be better else i will be walking in pain...Nothing much to blog though...just thank God for my day and pray for more blessings to come and that i can get baptised soon..just asked my mum again but she said No..

Anyway, if you people got relatives want to apply Maybank Platinum card do intro me,haha..thanks


Hmm, alrite, here to blog again. Today did not OT cause my colleagues did not want to also but next few days might nd to OT cause of dunno wat things...so anyway, reached home ard 730pm then went to bathe and eat my dinner, din manage to finish eating, somehow just too tired to eat,no apetite..the time just pass so fast...my colleague going on leave till nx nx week then will be back cause she going to Taiwan, so good rite. how i wish i can too...so anyway, these few days quite busy so i think the next few days will still be very busy...lotsa files to call nwadays..shocking man, 70 over files a day being sent to me and i got to distribute them out to my colleagues and myself to do the calling..and having emails sent to me to chase for the files back cause it's urgent. real madness...

Anyway, this saturday, pastor phil is coming to preach, woo! my fav preacher..he will paint and preach at the same time. amazing, such a talented person...so dun miss this out! It's a rare sight to see a pastor paint and preach at the same time. So if you are free, do join me for a fun time this week at church. just leave me a sms or tag here and i will get back to you!


Just reached home a while ago and went to shower and here i am blogging. very cold and tired now..sneezing away...did OT today as usual..quite busy at work...nothing much to update though...now going to eat my dinner and watch tv...mum did not cook today so i bought dinner home...shall blog again soon.


Had a real long tiring day today. last night went to bed ard 1am but could not slp till 230am...woke up ard 515am today when my alarm sounded. Was real tired...had a cup of dark coffee and meet guoxiong and then we took cab down to Bishan Park. reached there ard 645am and went to set up the game stall. So after that, we just sat down and wait for people to come but man, there was no crowd wan lor, i think they never advertise. so anyway, there were people playing netball and touch rugby there so we were just watching while waiting for people to come and play. Was so tired till feel like sleeping. Afternoon, i went to get lunch for both of us and ada who came later on in the afternoon..anyway, at the end of the day, i think our game booth earned the most? not sure...this is the most slack carnival...

After that, went to my grandma house at amk, then licoln came back, carried him and watched his pics taken ytd for his aunt wedding...cute little boy...oh ya, today saw a lot of cute dogs at the park, how i wish i can have a dog at home to accompany me also..so after that, dad fetched us to go boon keng for dinner...haha, my sis was frightened by cats and so she stand at the side and asked me to cook food for her to eat...after eating,sent her back to Yishun and then went up with her to her bf house to take things from her that she bought for my mum, lotsa food...alrite,im gg to sleep. im super tired now, tmr got to work..gd night


Had an awesome service today which lasted almost 4 hours. Presence of God was there, singer Carola was awesome, such a beautiful song she had. Preaching by pst Ulf was awesome too of course. Preached about the need of the supernatural, about the Holy Spirit. Indeed, without the Holy Spirit, we are nothing. There will be no true happiness,true satisfaction and no lasting fruits without the Holy Spirit. He will be our helper always. Depend on Him always and obey Him.

Well. got to go sleep now. got to wake up at 5plus then meet guoxiong go eat breakfast and head down to Bishan park to help him for the game booth. long day tmr. Nitez


Great cg msg today. It's about overcoming stress in life. Yes, everyone will surely have some stress here n there in life and because we live in Singapore, i guess more stress we are cause it's fast paced and everyone is so competitive in terms of studies,career and so on. So anyway, we must be overcomer of our stress. Leave everything to God. 8 ways to overcome our stress...really got to learn to apply them in our lifes.

Fear not for God is always there. He be there to lift up all our problems and stress. Indeed his yoke is easy and his burden is light. Hold on to His promises. Keep on speaking forth and have the Faith.

Anyway,cg gave me a bday card today made by Liting, nice..thanks a lot. all ur messages are just so touching. Thanks N283! i love you people. N283 rox! Lets grow and multiply the cg!


Alrite, heres the part 2 of my day, went for steamboat at Marina south with my relatives and had a great time eating,chatting etc, my cousins' bf came too, Lebrace and Jacques, my 1st time seeing Jacques,haha...a nice guy, lolx..dun let Amanda down huh,haha..So anyway, saw a few of my SP POS friends there when they shouted my name, i looked and haha, saw Huiwen, Candice etc. They were there eating also..After eating, my aunt took out my cake, nice cake, watermelon design,haha, will post pics up when i transferred from my hp or receive from my aunt the pics..so yeah,never sing song cause i paiseh, later everyone look...so just make a wish and blow off the candles..so i turned 20 today, start of the 2 digit le..next year will be a grand bday and it must be! 21 years old, hope i can baptise by then...

My cousin just nw gave me a bday gift, a love mug from more than words, thanks a lot. then my aunts blessed me financially. yeah,im blessed with all my friends and family. thanks a lot. This year, my bday is really different. With my cg giving me surprises in the morning, and so on, im really touched. I simply love all of u for making my day. Thank God for everything, all the friends and family members he has given me.

Tmr will need to go and work and after that at night going cg, and tmr is Lydia's bday..all take turns this week, ytd was Kristl's bday, then me and tmr Lydia's. Yeah. All the november babies rox!


Woo, slept quite late ytd ard 3 plus,woke up quite tired, meet guoxiong 1030am dwnstairs his blk cause need help him do things for game booth, so anyway a while later, a few of my cg members came and stun me, they bought a cake and sang me happy bday song. it was a real surprise..totally shocked...u guys make my day early in the morning,thanks, then after that chat ard and we asked Renzheng out to eat with us as well cause he stay just next blk to me also. So anyway, we headed to Kovan and had prata, finished eating ard 1 plus, then went to heartland mall with cass cause need to help guoxiong buy marker from popular...just reached home not long and im waiting for guoxiong to come my house and start helping him to things till evening and i need to go marina bay meet my relatives at 7pm...so far, lotsa people had already wished me happy bday, Thanks a lot all my friends! I love you all and God loves you too! Shall blog again later tonight if possible.


Went to his house today in the afternoon to get back all my stuffs. Well, the feeling was just kinda wierd anyway...so after that, came home with the stuffs and then went out with fiona...blessed her today and we went ard walking and ate, just wanna make myself happy. As i blessed others, i pray that more blessings will come my way too... so far, for my bday presents, i had received 2 bags, 1 from cg and 1 from my colleagues, 1 astro mug from my colleague which i put on my office desk, 1 winnie the pooh cd case from my colleagues as well, a pair of cross earrings and necklace from my sec school best friends, 1 tshirt from chris and perhaps more to come? not sure though...Had a long day out...less than 20 mins to my bday now...

Tmr will be another long day as in the morning, im going over to guoxiong blk, just 2 blks away to help him do something for sunday game booth, be helping him out at Bishan park the whole day till evening on sunday..at night tmr going to eat steamboat with my relatives at marina south...Hope i will have a great day ahead of me..

Anyway, the previous post, im just letting go of my frustrations, my real feelings..im not saying it cause im saying you did it on purpose. i understand that things cropped up and stuffs. Im sry it what u read hurt you and think that i dont understand, but thats just how im letting go so i blogged..


Wat a bad day today as well.. i just got home from work..did not meet him as supposed to..well, aftn got a sms from him saying he cant make it cause FYP cropped up and got to submit tmr, well, i understand that,ok nvm..but never even bother to say find other days or what. only say sorry..sorry abt everything but try putting urself in my shoes...my heart break into pieces again..i just feel that my feelings is being played around, taken advantage of..did you spare a thought for me? time and again, making decision and yet dun give a damn about my feelings...as a friend, cant even spare some time for me just to make me happy..im not asking a lot from you anyway...tears came down...haiz..im sure gonna delete everything from my hp...they seems to be whole loads of crap to me already, all the sweet talkings..

Said to be best friends still, but i dun feel like im treated like a best friend...haiz...even my colleagues blessed me today with gifts for my bday...haiz..im really so disappointed,hurt and watsoever..what a bday this year! just feel that all you care about is your work,yourself,your blessings...dun give a damn to me..dun care about me anymore...everything is just so unfair to me...when you were persecuted, in need, im always there to encourage you, do things for you, when u are sick, take care of you, buy food for you..and now, this is what i get in return for everything i done. When i needed encouragement,needed someone, where were u? so far behind till i cant even see or sense...never even talk to me etc...Gosh! No One can understand how i feel....trying to drown my sorrows...feel that im like nonsense to you now...not important. i dunwan this kind of feelings...u dun understand my feelings now...


Yesterday went out with my friend to VivoCity and we walked around a few times just waiting for time to pass..then we went to queue at Sushi tei, went in and eat...well, got a treat from him, thanks a lot...it's appreciated...

Started my day bad today...something happened and then i got to take urgent half day leave...so anyway, take some time to worship and as i sang the songs, tears flowed down, presence of God and as i were singing,feel that He was saying He will never let me go. God is the strength of my heart and my portion forever. I'm still trying to let go of everything completely. i guess i still need some time. memories are still lingering around and so on. Time will heal my hurts and God will. I Pray that i will have a better future and everything in place for me. God promised in the bible that He will give me a future and a hope. Holding on to the promises He made.

Pray that tmr will be a great day and great start of my day. I pray that it will not be like today. Pray that i dont have to OT tmr cause im meeting Ryan to celebrate my bday. Pray that everything will be just fine for me. Amen.


Thanks Ah Bu Family, which consists of Ruiyu,Meiyi,Suwei,Shing Hwee,Chew Fong,Felicia and Sokfeng for the bday celebration yesterday! Thanks Ruiyu's, Shing's and Cia's bf too! Yesterday after service, i had to chiong home super fast cause my friends were waiting for me and had already ordered Pizza to be delivered to my house, so anyway,i got home near to 9pm and the pizza just arrived and Shing hwee has collected it downstairs my house, thanks a lot.

So they waited for me to bathe then we started eating the Pizza, and watching Channel U the dog show, so cute and funny..then after eating,we just hanged around,chit chat,use computer and later on some of them play monopoly and lasted for few hours,haha..and guess what, while i was in the room talking with Sok feng and Meiyi, then the surprise came, the rest came to my room, switch off the lights and sang happy birthday to me with a cake..then after that sabo me, put cake cream all over my face,lolx...then after that we had happy hour...Ruiyu left ard 430am cause her mum dun let her stay, then 5 plus all of us went to lied down and sleep. i was lying on the floor near my computer,haha...all of them quite seh already but im the one thats still ok and awake...at 6 plus, Meiyi and sok feng were leaving so i opened the door for them...yap, then 8 plus Suwei,Cia and her bf left and i continued sleeping and woke up ard 12 plus or so and just lied dwn on the bed...many people were smsing me and calling me, haha...

Going to get my lunch soon and i still need to finish up 1 bottle of erdinger before i leave home else my mum see, im dead...later going to VivoCity to meet my friend to have dinner with him and also to celebrate..This year, my birthday is really so different from last year...Different kind of mood and feelings...

Oh Yes, my friends gave me a cross necklace and a pair of earrings in the set..thanks a lot..yeah...my Ah Bu Family is always the best. 7 years long of friendship and keeps going..

Somehow, im missing you...


Cell group celebrated my birthday today! Thanks a lot! i love you N283! you guys are the best and of course my best CGL...got a bag from my cg which is suitable for work use.. thanks...tmr my sec sch frenz will be celebrating with me, looking forward and we shall ton all night and do watsoever at my house...freedom...

Anyway, here are some of my birthday wishes:

1) To be baptised next year
2) Family salvation
3) To Be Cg Guitarist
4) To get into University next year
5) Breakthrough in financial
6) To get more friends saved
7) More Blessings to come my way
8) To get my wishlist fulfilled and lotsa more...


After work today, went to meet my poly friends at Orchard, Raudhah and Lydia..and man, just a lot bad things happened. Firstly, the mrt i took stopped damn long at Lavender, dunno why, quite pissed off cause the doors keep open and close and people kept entering...then after that, when reach City Hall, it was packed with people...waited so long for the mrt and in order for me to get in...there was some disruption to Marina Bay and gosh, it was terrible..people were just pushing around. i was so frustrated...Singapore is just too small till things like this happen..i hate it...so anyway, reached Orchard ard 715pm, was late already..then went walk ard with Raudhah and we headed towards Centrepoint for dinner..while crossing the road, there is this car that is huge and right beside me..almost knocked me and my friend down...maybe i could have died then...thank God i never..and then we just eat dinner and waited for Lydia to come..we went to coffee Bean later on, sit down and catch up with each other..

It is then time to go home and me and Raudhah decided to share a cab home and so we did. waited quite long for one to come and tried to call but to no avail...so anyway, otw home, accident almost happened again..the cab driver almost turned to a wrong lane that is the opposite direction! if there is a car there, tats it, bang and gone...wah, it is really scary can..twice in a day...today almost died and return to God's side i guess...

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The day passes quite fast today. was not so busy in the morning but after lunch, i got more busy processing cases and i started doing automax cases as well. Learning in progress. so far so good. Their cases are more challenging cause we have to fully process everything, do discreet checks before we can actually submit. Was getting rather tired towards end of the day and suddenly, i feel like no oxygen like tat, is like my head suddenly dunno wat happen. Feel like so tight tat kind of feeling. Maybe too tired.. So anyway, next tues got to go meeting for xmas party. I got nominated by my colleagues to represent them in the committee to plan xmas party. Pray for ideas ba,haha.if you people got ideas like what to do for xmas party etc, pls tag and let me know.haha. asap before tues so that i can contribute my ideas. thanks thanks! im so tired now.. waiting for 9pm show, after that should be read the bible and then off to bed le. Tmr is friday le, so fast and it ends November. Time flies. 2008 is nearing.

When You're Gone
I always needed time on my own
I never thought I’d need you there when I cry
And the days feel like years when I’m alone
And the bed where you lie
is made up on your side

When you walk away
I count the steps that you take
Do you see how much I need you right now?

When you’re gone
The pieces of my heart are missing you
When you’re gone
The face I came to know is missing too
When you’re gone
All the words I need to hear to always get me through the day
And make it OK
I miss you

I’ve never felt this way before
Everything that I do
Reminds me of you
And the clothes you left
they lie on my floor
And they smell just like you
I love the things that you do

When you walk away
I count the steps that you take

Do you see how much I need you right now?

When you’re gone
The pieces of my heart are missing you
When you’re gone
The face I came to know is missing too
And when you’re gone
The words I need to hear to always get me through the day
And make it OK
I miss you

We were made for each other
Out here forever
I know we were
Yeah Yeah

All I ever wanted was for you to know
Everything I do I give my heart and soul
I can hardly breathe, I need to feel you here with me
Yeah

When you’re gone
The pieces of my heart are missing you
When you’re gone
The face I came to know is missing too
When you’re gone
The words I need to hear will always get me through the day
And make it OK
I miss you




Just got home not long ago. went Bugis today to meet adalene, rong jian and guo xiong was there too. Want to find Renzheng bday gift today so i told them to meet up. So anyway met them ard 7pm, then we went walk around and after that ard 8pm we went food court to eat and head off to Bugis street. So after getting Huitian's approval to what to buy, we then proceed. Saw a real cute dog! so cute! it's a puppy! I have the urge to want to carry it home,haha! I simply love cute dogs!cute things capture my attention. I want my own dog! i wish..So after getting it, went to Bossini to find my friend Baoling, cause her friend wanted to buy something there and me being born in 1987, will have additional 20% discount cause they having 20th anniversary, so yeah..haha. the cashier so funny, look at my NRIC pic and then look at me and then say, wah, how come lose so much weight.lolx!

After that, walked together with adalene to O school to find Liting for practise of dance for breakaway event. Went up and take a look at O school. relaxing place.haha. Then saw some people dancing, real cool.

Oh ya, today when i was about to leave office, my head came to me and asked if could talk to me. I thought what is it man. Then sat down and she said so how's work now? enjoying? then i says ok ar, not too bad. Then she said, your face tells that you are enjoying,i was like inside me saying is it? So she said she is very happy with my work performance, says that i improved drastically and hit the monthly target. After which, she shoot me with the question, if i transfer you over to Automax are u ok with it? cause they short people and so on, then i said im alrite. Dunno why she choose me anyway cause i never tried doing their cases before. Their cases require full process and more tough as compared to distributorship whereby we are processing new cars. Automax is old cars and new cars. Their volume is a lot so short of people. so from tmr, i will be asked to learn doing their cases and soon i will need to shift my seat over le. Pray that everything will be just fine for me at work. Wonder how my lunch time and also who to cover my leave etc.

Woo, what a long post today. More happenings today so yeah. Pray for a great day ahead tmr and everything to be just fine. Soon is going to December. Another new month, another new beginning. Seems like every new mth i got new beginnings. Nov was one, Dec another new beginning,new things to learn. Gonna go to bed now, suddenly got headache, very tired. Nitez reader. Below is a song that is nice and emo.

Wait for You
I never felt nothing in the world like this before
Now I'm missing you
& I'm wishing that you would come back through my door
Why did you have to go? You could have let me know
So now I'm all alone,
Girl you could have stayed
but you wouldnt give me a chance
With you not around it's a little bit more then i can stand
And all my tears they keep running down my face
Why did you turn away?

So why does your pride make you run and hide?
Are you that afraid of me?
But I know it's a lie what you keep inside
This is not how you wanted to be

So baby I will wait for you
Cause I don''t know what else i can do
Don't tell me I ran out of time
If it takes the rest of my life

Baby I will wait for you
If you think I'm fine it just aint true
I really need you in my life
No matter what i have to do I'll wait for you

It's been a long time since you called me
(How could you forget about me)
You got me feeling crazy (crazy)
How can you walk away,
Everything stays the same
I just can't do it baby
What will it take to make you come back
Girl I told you what it is & it just ain't like that
Why can't you look at me, your still in love with me
Don't leave me crying.

Baby why can't we just start over again
Get it back to the way it was
If you give me a chance I can love you right
But your telling me it wont be enough

So baby I will wait for you
Cause I don''t know what else i can do
Don't tell me I ran out of time
If it takes the rest of my life

Baby I will wait for you
If you think I'm fine it just aint true
I really need you in my life
No matter what i have to do I'll wait for you

So why does you pride make you run & hide
Are you that afriad of me?
But I know it's a lie what your keeping inside
Thats not how you wanted to be

Baby I will wait for you
Baby I will wait for you
If it's the last thing i do

Baby I will wait for you
Cause I don''t know what else i can do
Don't tell me I ran out of time
If it takes the rest of my life

Baby I will wait for you
If you think I'm fine it just aint true
I really need you in my life
No matter what i have to do I'll wait for you

I'll Be Waiting.



Had a rather boring day today, not very busy at work so was like yawning away, getting tired as i wait for time to pass. today got zone prayer meeting at riverwalk for breakaway at 7pm but i did not go cause sure late anyway since i end work at 6 plus.. so anyway got home ard 720pm then went to shower and eat my dinner, relaxed around and here i am blogging...nothing much happened today also..anyway the dragon boat tragedy that happened is so sad..tells us we should really treasure every moment we have and with our loved ones. once gone, forever gone..soon is going to December and there will be 2 Public Hols which are Hari Raya Haji on 20 dec and Xmas itself on 25 Dec...time to shop for gifts and think hard what to buy again..the year is coming to an end soon and i hope for a better 2008, better things ahead. Gonna practise my guitar now and wait for 9pm show to start. ciaoz. do tag me readers.


Reached home around 730pm today, did not OT..start of the day was quite busy and the time was flying..During lunch, it rained so heavily and we were stuck at keypoint for some time, then shared umbrella with my colleagues but still got wet somehow..after lunch was more manageable...so now eating my dinner and blogging at the same time...still feeling a bit down, dunno why ar. am i in depression? haiz..Keep praying that I will be alrite and so on...heal all my hurts completely and so on... haiz...at times really want to lose all the bad memories...so sian...hate the feeling of being alone...pray for a better future of mine...


Ytd i was somehow very moody, i dunno why. just so pek chek suddenly. Inside me is like going to explode anytime. The way i talked was like so pek chek already and i was like argh. dunno wats wrong with me..so ytd nothing much also, just went service etc then nicole meet me at night and come my house stay cause today going out.

Today went out in the morning with my parents go eat lunch, never really eat though, then after that went Bugis to meet my sis and Amanda and went shop around. Sis bless me financially for my birthday. did not get anything from Levis or Ed Hardy. I got 2 tops, 1 from far east and another from this fashion. New style. So anyway, today dunno why i also quite down, moody,haiz. no appetite to eat at all. whole day, i just had the lunch, drink the pork rib soup and some rice, then my dinner was just tako balls tats all. Haiz..


Well, Take Mc today, Woke up in the morning and decided not to go to work. Was rather tired and hmm, stomach also a bit wierd though, so decided to go to the doctor. So went to Hougang polyclinic see doctor. so anyway the doctor asks me to eat more fruits also cause she says constipation i think.. then anyway, bought this roll on for sweaty palms, hope it helps to subside at least..later will be going out to meet my cell grp members and then after that tonight got cell grp..Was just watching this show Mars vs Venus again, on crunchyroll..it's a nice show and touching and what they say is so true. It's about man and woman differences and so on..so caught this from the show ending..

Short hair can grow again
Happiness that is lost may not be found again
Dont take a happy marriage for granted
A lasting happy marriage needs to be worked at.


So fast tmr is friday again. Woo. Today somehow rotting around in office. nothing much to do then after that i was doing some credit cards things and then called for meeting about credit cards again. So much things to check and do for them, so crap. My colleagues all oso sian abt work already... Just so tired..

Anyway, reached home ard 7 plus today then mum told me i forgot off the fan when i went out today, oops. She came home in the morning cause she had a fall at work and went to chinese physician then came back home. Hope she get well soon.

Nothing much to blog, shall update again soon. Looking forward to weekends


Yesterday during midnight, suddenly i was feeling very uncomfortable..keep getting up and went to take my temperature and man, i was down with fever..i was like groaning in pain sort of on the bed and even almost fell off and i dunno why. im in dunno what state already. Was feeling real sick and weak..intended to take MC but then this morning i woke up and still went ahead to work. Was feeling real tired and kind of weak. Did not even finish my lunch. Could not eat. Pray for more strength ba. Hope will be better day tmr.


Im so worn out. Physically and mentally. Did not eat alot for dinner, cant eat. Just need to rest. Today at work rather busy too, and stomach was hurting here n there. Then i got more tired and weak till i almost wanted to collapse soon and work just keep on piling up...then my colleague Gary walked past and he said sharon why u so tired ar, i say ya tired ar.. anyway, today reminds me of that time when i was in great pain and i almost blacked out twice in a day and he was with me. If today i were to black out again at office, i wonder what will happen..

Nowadays, listening to some songs brought back memories and at times,tears might just roll. Im quite Emo so ya lor..Memories will always be there to stay of course, but i actually already moved on. Cause I know my God has plans for my life, my future, He cares for me. Cast all your burdens unto Him for He cares for you. I do miss the times when someone is there for me.

我知道故事不会太曲折
我总会遇见一个什么人
陪我过没有了他/她的人生
成家立业之类的等等
他/她做了他觉得对的选择
我只好祝福他真的对了
爱不到我最想要爱的人
谁还能要我怎样呢
我爱的人不是我的爱人
他/她心里每一寸都
属于另一个人
他/她真幸福
幸福得真残忍
让我又爱又恨 他/她的爱怎么那么深
我爱的人 他/她已有了爱人
从他们的眼神 说明了我不可能
每当听见他/她或他说「我们」
就像听见爱情永恒的嘲笑声

This song can really cry. Heard from Denise blog.


Another day has gone by. So fast. Today was rather busy at work and system was down so was waiting all the time for searches to return and then can proceed to process the case. OT today again...left office ard 720pm then went to take bus home. so now here i am blogging. just finish dinner and showering, nw just resting around a while..so tired...yesterday went for service and it's great. Pastor Phil painted the cross with Jesus, nice painting.haha. Whoever buys it will be blessed. After service went to eat with Liting at Tampines then went to Jieyong house for guitar lesson. My 1st lesson with him after so long...so anyway, learnt new strumming and yes, will practise hard and work on my dream to be a CG guitarist! Pray that i can be one by next year.

Shall end my post here. nothing much to blog about. My heart is crying silently and only God knows.

The Click Five- Empty

Tried to take a picture
Of love
Didn't think I'd miss her
That much
I want to fill this new frame
But its empty

Tried to write a letter
In ink
Its been getting better
I think
I got a piece of paper
But its empty
Its empty

Maybe we're trying
Trying too hard
Maybe we're torn apart
Maybe the timing
Is beating our hearts
We're empty

And I've even wondered
If we
Should be getting under
These sheets
We could lie in this bed
But its empty
Its empty

Maybe we're trying
Trying too hard
Maybe we're torn apart
Maybe the timing
Is beating our hearts
We're empty

Oh oh
Oh oh
Oooooh
Oh oh
Oh oh

Maybe we're trying
Trying too hard
Maybe we're torn apart
Maybe the timing
Is beating our hearts
We're empty

We're empty


What an awesome service today! It's something new as Pastor Phil Pringle Paints and Preaches at the same time. well, he is really an anointed and talented artist. He paint so well. Real awesome. I can never do that, haha. He paints the Last Supper today. Jesus and the 12 Disciples at the table. woo. a very nice painting of his but haha, cant afford to buy his paintings cause it costs thousands!

Presence of God was very strong too, since praise. it's great. Simply love the House of God. At the end of the service, Pastor Tan tells us that do not worry, give all to God. Indeed really got to leave all to God and trusts him, He cares about us, everything about us and he promised to give a future and a hope. God has great plans for us and we may not know them but yes, it will come to pass. Tmr, Pastor Phil be painting the Cross. It will be another great service to look forward to. Gonna sleep soon cause im real tired and im falling sick soon. Good Nite Readers. Do Tag me more often peeps! Im home alone now. Going sleep


Just got home from work. tired ar! Now eating my lunch then i got to rush to expo for service le. so tired now. need strength, argh! Feeling a bit sick like tat soon..drained completely.


More and more OTs! Woo! Madness! Tmr is Saturday and guess what? i have to report to office at 930am and God knows what time we will work until cause got no idea. it depends on how fast we do our work. Got to go back and do credit cards, do approval and so on. Pray that it will end early so that i got time to go church at expo or maybe can go home then change first. Shall see what happens tmr. This whole week really OT all the way. More money is coming though but it is rather tiring. So nowadays i will usually sleep ard 1030pm to 11 plus. really too tired and i need lotsa energy the next day.

Today lunched with Christopher at Concourse BK. Cause no one lunch with me. My colleague on leave today then my mentor says not lunching with me. then i sms Chris then he called me, so anyway he was nearby so lunched together. Thanks for lunching with me else i be alone. Had cg today as well. Reached Cg at 8pm, 45 mins late due to OT. Rushed down after work. Thank God i did not miss the prayer meeting. when i reached was just ending ministering session. Had a great prayer meeting. Lets see our cg hit 20 people by December! N283 lets jiayou! See this vision and reach for it! Confess it and pray over it! Think, Believe,Dream, Speak! Let's be pregnant with this vision and give birth to it at the end of Dec! N283 Rox!


God I need more of your strength. OT today till 7 plus and walked to beach road to meet my cgm for dinner. they met at 6 Plus to go army mkt to find shoe,haha. I wanted to go find converse sneaker there too but i OT, and close shop le.well, planning to either go Queenstown with Rong Jian and Cass to go find or see how ba...This whole week really everyday OT except for tues but supposingly also need want..more money coming from all the OT but it's tiring and kind of no life cause by the time i reached home, bathe, eat and so on, it is time to sleep soon.

Well, want to go dye hair with Suwei soon. Time to get rid of my black hair. prefer my coloured hair,haha..so hopefully next week after work can go with her at Serangoon here cause it's cheap and it's near my house too,haha..Pray that i dun need OT...This week really pass so fast and tmr is friday already. Might be very late for my cg tmr and it's PM tmr so will end quite fast..if i OT i will surely miss it...shall see what happens tmr. 2 of my colleagues are on leave at the same time tmr and monday,which means left 4 of us and 1 of them doing credit cards so left 3 of us. will be sure busy...So im gonna sleep real soon cause really need enuff rest. Just now even take bus and overshot, never alight cause i fell asleep then still blur blur. so alighted 2 stops later and walked back home..


As the title suggest, yes gonna have more OTs at work le cause of credit cards. can earn more money but also mean lesser time to rest...today reached home ard 9pm, then went to bathe and eat my dinner. So here i am blogging now and later wanna play guitar and then i guess i will go and sleep le. So fast already thurs tmr, just dont have the feeling...So anyway, today injured my finger with the staple at work, the back of it hurt it and the skin came out and it bleed. and dunno how come my left thigh is super pain, seems like being strained or what..hope tmr will be better else i will be walking in pain...Nothing much to blog though...just thank God for my day and pray for more blessings to come and that i can get baptised soon..just asked my mum again but she said No..

Anyway, if you people got relatives want to apply Maybank Platinum card do intro me,haha..thanks


Hmm, alrite, here to blog again. Today did not OT cause my colleagues did not want to also but next few days might nd to OT cause of dunno wat things...so anyway, reached home ard 730pm then went to bathe and eat my dinner, din manage to finish eating, somehow just too tired to eat,no apetite..the time just pass so fast...my colleague going on leave till nx nx week then will be back cause she going to Taiwan, so good rite. how i wish i can too...so anyway, these few days quite busy so i think the next few days will still be very busy...lotsa files to call nwadays..shocking man, 70 over files a day being sent to me and i got to distribute them out to my colleagues and myself to do the calling..and having emails sent to me to chase for the files back cause it's urgent. real madness...

Anyway, this saturday, pastor phil is coming to preach, woo! my fav preacher..he will paint and preach at the same time. amazing, such a talented person...so dun miss this out! It's a rare sight to see a pastor paint and preach at the same time. So if you are free, do join me for a fun time this week at church. just leave me a sms or tag here and i will get back to you!


Just reached home a while ago and went to shower and here i am blogging. very cold and tired now..sneezing away...did OT today as usual..quite busy at work...nothing much to update though...now going to eat my dinner and watch tv...mum did not cook today so i bought dinner home...shall blog again soon.


Had a real long tiring day today. last night went to bed ard 1am but could not slp till 230am...woke up ard 515am today when my alarm sounded. Was real tired...had a cup of dark coffee and meet guoxiong and then we took cab down to Bishan Park. reached there ard 645am and went to set up the game stall. So after that, we just sat down and wait for people to come but man, there was no crowd wan lor, i think they never advertise. so anyway, there were people playing netball and touch rugby there so we were just watching while waiting for people to come and play. Was so tired till feel like sleeping. Afternoon, i went to get lunch for both of us and ada who came later on in the afternoon..anyway, at the end of the day, i think our game booth earned the most? not sure...this is the most slack carnival...

After that, went to my grandma house at amk, then licoln came back, carried him and watched his pics taken ytd for his aunt wedding...cute little boy...oh ya, today saw a lot of cute dogs at the park, how i wish i can have a dog at home to accompany me also..so after that, dad fetched us to go boon keng for dinner...haha, my sis was frightened by cats and so she stand at the side and asked me to cook food for her to eat...after eating,sent her back to Yishun and then went up with her to her bf house to take things from her that she bought for my mum, lotsa food...alrite,im gg to sleep. im super tired now, tmr got to work..gd night


Had an awesome service today which lasted almost 4 hours. Presence of God was there, singer Carola was awesome, such a beautiful song she had. Preaching by pst Ulf was awesome too of course. Preached about the need of the supernatural, about the Holy Spirit. Indeed, without the Holy Spirit, we are nothing. There will be no true happiness,true satisfaction and no lasting fruits without the Holy Spirit. He will be our helper always. Depend on Him always and obey Him.

Well. got to go sleep now. got to wake up at 5plus then meet guoxiong go eat breakfast and head down to Bishan park to help him for the game booth. long day tmr. Nitez


Great cg msg today. It's about overcoming stress in life. Yes, everyone will surely have some stress here n there in life and because we live in Singapore, i guess more stress we are cause it's fast paced and everyone is so competitive in terms of studies,career and so on. So anyway, we must be overcomer of our stress. Leave everything to God. 8 ways to overcome our stress...really got to learn to apply them in our lifes.

Fear not for God is always there. He be there to lift up all our problems and stress. Indeed his yoke is easy and his burden is light. Hold on to His promises. Keep on speaking forth and have the Faith.

Anyway,cg gave me a bday card today made by Liting, nice..thanks a lot. all ur messages are just so touching. Thanks N283! i love you people. N283 rox! Lets grow and multiply the cg!


Alrite, heres the part 2 of my day, went for steamboat at Marina south with my relatives and had a great time eating,chatting etc, my cousins' bf came too, Lebrace and Jacques, my 1st time seeing Jacques,haha...a nice guy, lolx..dun let Amanda down huh,haha..So anyway, saw a few of my SP POS friends there when they shouted my name, i looked and haha, saw Huiwen, Candice etc. They were there eating also..After eating, my aunt took out my cake, nice cake, watermelon design,haha, will post pics up when i transferred from my hp or receive from my aunt the pics..so yeah,never sing song cause i paiseh, later everyone look...so just make a wish and blow off the candles..so i turned 20 today, start of the 2 digit le..next year will be a grand bday and it must be! 21 years old, hope i can baptise by then...

My cousin just nw gave me a bday gift, a love mug from more than words, thanks a lot. then my aunts blessed me financially. yeah,im blessed with all my friends and family. thanks a lot. This year, my bday is really different. With my cg giving me surprises in the morning, and so on, im really touched. I simply love all of u for making my day. Thank God for everything, all the friends and family members he has given me.

Tmr will need to go and work and after that at night going cg, and tmr is Lydia's bday..all take turns this week, ytd was Kristl's bday, then me and tmr Lydia's. Yeah. All the november babies rox!


Woo, slept quite late ytd ard 3 plus,woke up quite tired, meet guoxiong 1030am dwnstairs his blk cause need help him do things for game booth, so anyway a while later, a few of my cg members came and stun me, they bought a cake and sang me happy bday song. it was a real surprise..totally shocked...u guys make my day early in the morning,thanks, then after that chat ard and we asked Renzheng out to eat with us as well cause he stay just next blk to me also. So anyway, we headed to Kovan and had prata, finished eating ard 1 plus, then went to heartland mall with cass cause need to help guoxiong buy marker from popular...just reached home not long and im waiting for guoxiong to come my house and start helping him to things till evening and i need to go marina bay meet my relatives at 7pm...so far, lotsa people had already wished me happy bday, Thanks a lot all my friends! I love you all and God loves you too! Shall blog again later tonight if possible.


Went to his house today in the afternoon to get back all my stuffs. Well, the feeling was just kinda wierd anyway...so after that, came home with the stuffs and then went out with fiona...blessed her today and we went ard walking and ate, just wanna make myself happy. As i blessed others, i pray that more blessings will come my way too... so far, for my bday presents, i had received 2 bags, 1 from cg and 1 from my colleagues, 1 astro mug from my colleague which i put on my office desk, 1 winnie the pooh cd case from my colleagues as well, a pair of cross earrings and necklace from my sec school best friends, 1 tshirt from chris and perhaps more to come? not sure though...Had a long day out...less than 20 mins to my bday now...

Tmr will be another long day as in the morning, im going over to guoxiong blk, just 2 blks away to help him do something for sunday game booth, be helping him out at Bishan park the whole day till evening on sunday..at night tmr going to eat steamboat with my relatives at marina south...Hope i will have a great day ahead of me..

Anyway, the previous post, im just letting go of my frustrations, my real feelings..im not saying it cause im saying you did it on purpose. i understand that things cropped up and stuffs. Im sry it what u read hurt you and think that i dont understand, but thats just how im letting go so i blogged..


Wat a bad day today as well.. i just got home from work..did not meet him as supposed to..well, aftn got a sms from him saying he cant make it cause FYP cropped up and got to submit tmr, well, i understand that,ok nvm..but never even bother to say find other days or what. only say sorry..sorry abt everything but try putting urself in my shoes...my heart break into pieces again..i just feel that my feelings is being played around, taken advantage of..did you spare a thought for me? time and again, making decision and yet dun give a damn about my feelings...as a friend, cant even spare some time for me just to make me happy..im not asking a lot from you anyway...tears came down...haiz..im sure gonna delete everything from my hp...they seems to be whole loads of crap to me already, all the sweet talkings..

Said to be best friends still, but i dun feel like im treated like a best friend...haiz...even my colleagues blessed me today with gifts for my bday...haiz..im really so disappointed,hurt and watsoever..what a bday this year! just feel that all you care about is your work,yourself,your blessings...dun give a damn to me..dun care about me anymore...everything is just so unfair to me...when you were persecuted, in need, im always there to encourage you, do things for you, when u are sick, take care of you, buy food for you..and now, this is what i get in return for everything i done. When i needed encouragement,needed someone, where were u? so far behind till i cant even see or sense...never even talk to me etc...Gosh! No One can understand how i feel....trying to drown my sorrows...feel that im like nonsense to you now...not important. i dunwan this kind of feelings...u dun understand my feelings now...


Yesterday went out with my friend to VivoCity and we walked around a few times just waiting for time to pass..then we went to queue at Sushi tei, went in and eat...well, got a treat from him, thanks a lot...it's appreciated...

Started my day bad today...something happened and then i got to take urgent half day leave...so anyway, take some time to worship and as i sang the songs, tears flowed down, presence of God and as i were singing,feel that He was saying He will never let me go. God is the strength of my heart and my portion forever. I'm still trying to let go of everything completely. i guess i still need some time. memories are still lingering around and so on. Time will heal my hurts and God will. I Pray that i will have a better future and everything in place for me. God promised in the bible that He will give me a future and a hope. Holding on to the promises He made.

Pray that tmr will be a great day and great start of my day. I pray that it will not be like today. Pray that i dont have to OT tmr cause im meeting Ryan to celebrate my bday. Pray that everything will be just fine for me. Amen.


Thanks Ah Bu Family, which consists of Ruiyu,Meiyi,Suwei,Shing Hwee,Chew Fong,Felicia and Sokfeng for the bday celebration yesterday! Thanks Ruiyu's, Shing's and Cia's bf too! Yesterday after service, i had to chiong home super fast cause my friends were waiting for me and had already ordered Pizza to be delivered to my house, so anyway,i got home near to 9pm and the pizza just arrived and Shing hwee has collected it downstairs my house, thanks a lot.

So they waited for me to bathe then we started eating the Pizza, and watching Channel U the dog show, so cute and funny..then after eating,we just hanged around,chit chat,use computer and later on some of them play monopoly and lasted for few hours,haha..and guess what, while i was in the room talking with Sok feng and Meiyi, then the surprise came, the rest came to my room, switch off the lights and sang happy birthday to me with a cake..then after that sabo me, put cake cream all over my face,lolx...then after that we had happy hour...Ruiyu left ard 430am cause her mum dun let her stay, then 5 plus all of us went to lied down and sleep. i was lying on the floor near my computer,haha...all of them quite seh already but im the one thats still ok and awake...at 6 plus, Meiyi and sok feng were leaving so i opened the door for them...yap, then 8 plus Suwei,Cia and her bf left and i continued sleeping and woke up ard 12 plus or so and just lied dwn on the bed...many people were smsing me and calling me, haha...

Going to get my lunch soon and i still need to finish up 1 bottle of erdinger before i leave home else my mum see, im dead...later going to VivoCity to meet my friend to have dinner with him and also to celebrate..This year, my birthday is really so different from last year...Different kind of mood and feelings...

Oh Yes, my friends gave me a cross necklace and a pair of earrings in the set..thanks a lot..yeah...my Ah Bu Family is always the best. 7 years long of friendship and keeps going..

Somehow, im missing you...


Cell group celebrated my birthday today! Thanks a lot! i love you N283! you guys are the best and of course my best CGL...got a bag from my cg which is suitable for work use.. thanks...tmr my sec sch frenz will be celebrating with me, looking forward and we shall ton all night and do watsoever at my house...freedom...

Anyway, here are some of my birthday wishes:

1) To be baptised next year
2) Family salvation
3) To Be Cg Guitarist
4) To get into University next year
5) Breakthrough in financial
6) To get more friends saved
7) More Blessings to come my way
8) To get my wishlist fulfilled and lotsa more...


After work today, went to meet my poly friends at Orchard, Raudhah and Lydia..and man, just a lot bad things happened. Firstly, the mrt i took stopped damn long at Lavender, dunno why, quite pissed off cause the doors keep open and close and people kept entering...then after that, when reach City Hall, it was packed with people...waited so long for the mrt and in order for me to get in...there was some disruption to Marina Bay and gosh, it was terrible..people were just pushing around. i was so frustrated...Singapore is just too small till things like this happen..i hate it...so anyway, reached Orchard ard 715pm, was late already..then went walk ard with Raudhah and we headed towards Centrepoint for dinner..while crossing the road, there is this car that is huge and right beside me..almost knocked me and my friend down...maybe i could have died then...thank God i never..and then we just eat dinner and waited for Lydia to come..we went to coffee Bean later on, sit down and catch up with each other..

It is then time to go home and me and Raudhah decided to share a cab home and so we did. waited quite long for one to come and tried to call but to no avail...so anyway, otw home, accident almost happened again..the cab driver almost turned to a wrong lane that is the opposite direction! if there is a car there, tats it, bang and gone...wah, it is really scary can..twice in a day...today almost died and return to God's side i guess...

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